When I drafted this post a few days ago it was snowing, and I was mortally offended.
I was done with snow at the beginning of March, when the sun started to beam down and I was blessed with sixty- and seventy-degree days. I put my fleece back in the closet. I tentatively started to wear short-sleeved shirts again. I contemplated putting a spring wreath on the front door.
It’s April, I told myself. Spring is here.
Except it wasn’t quite, and, as I said, I was mortally offended. But you know what I’m not?
I’m not worried. I haven’t freaked out and called the local meteorologist to ask them why spring has been canceled. I haven’t started camping out in my front yard, questioning my friends and neighbors about whether this is maybe the first year that there will be no spring. I haven’t burned my t-shirts or the spring wreath.
I’m not worried because, for the thirty-three years I have lived on this planet, winter has eventually ended. In fits and in starts, yes, and sometimes an odd snowstorm or even a blizzard will crop up, but it does end. Every year that I have been alive, spring has arrived and the cycle of the seasons continued apace. This is the way the world moves. This is the way life is.
It’s embarrassing to realize that I trust the cycle of the seasons a good deal more than I trust God. Maybe most of us do.
Because I’m far calmer about snowstorms than spiritual storms. I am convinced that God has a plan and a purpose for my life and I have been moving toward it for many years, but the slightest variations on that plan – unexpected events, delays, obstacles – throw me into an immediate tailspin of panic. I question everything. I assume that maybe spring is not coming and was never intended to come and I read God’s desires wrong all along. I question the direction God has pointed me in and I storm the throne and demand answers. I wonder if I’ll have to go right back to the drawing board.
It’s so short-sighted.
Granted, it’s never a bad thing to reflect on where we are, what God wants for us, and what we perceive His plans for us to be. Sometimes things do change, and sometimes a change in direction is called for. But sometimes – sometimes! – God’s plans just take time to blossom. A lot of time. They will come into fruition, just like spring, and all in God’s good time. We just lack the perspective to see it.
Please understand: the obstacle, the storm, the delay will pass. Too many times we believers run into these things as we go about our work for the Lord and we perceive them as an end; we call off spring, and we turn around and go home. And we miss out on so much.
Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him (James 1:12)
In tests large and small, through all the false starts that make us wonder what’s going on and whether we should turn around and go home, perseverance is one of the most significant elements of faith. I’ll stay, it says, trusting in what is ahead. And like any skill, it is one that demands practice over and over again – even in the middle of the freak spiritual snowstorms that obscure our view of what was promised.
Obstacles aren’t always meant to be avoided. Delays don’t mean that you should leave and go home.
And some snowstorms are meant to be endured. Spring’s still coming.
May you be blessed as you keep moving forward.
4 thoughts on “False Starts And Faith”
I’m so glad I came across this. You well put into words what I have been thinking/ pondering for a little while now. Spring always comes, Gods word never returns void, we can trust God with everything!
I’m glad that someone else has been thinking about this as well! Yes, it’s a good reminder – God always knows what He is doing, even when we forget!
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Your words are very true. I could just be speaking for myself here, but I think it’s so easy to fall into the trap of thinking that God’s plan doesn’t involve anything but smooth sailing and quick results. I know that’s what I want, but that doesn’t always seem to be how God works.
I’ve been blogging through the beginning of Exodus lately and you can see this in a lot of places. Moses’ path to leading the Israelites is not smooth nor is it very quick. Now if I could only internalize that truth better than I have been able to so far.
I suspect you’re speaking for a lot of people! I’ve certainly had those moments where I assume something is “God’s will” if or because it happens to be going well…and that isn’t really always the case. It’s a dangerous fallacy to fall into.
The OT always reveals so much about how bumpy the journey can be – but like you I often struggle to internalize those truths! It’s much easier to see it than to live it, sometimes.
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